Pieces

I want to tell the world how happy I am
I feel a million dollars - how are you?
Me? I’m fine, as you can see
Do you like that record at number 2?

No actually baby I’m telling a lie
I feel so lonely that I could die
I miss her, miss her, oh so much
It’s been a bout ten weeks now
And I’m falling to pieces
I cry myself to sleep every night
I’m falling to pieces
If you could only see me now
Oh, what a mess
I want so much to die
And escape from all this
I’m just a pale shadow of my former self
And, you know
It’s really embarrassing
And a little sad
When you walk past a mirror
And think
Is that mess me?
No, it can’t be
And your reflection laughs in your face
I mean
I didn’t have much anyway
Even when I made an effort
But now I make no effort at all
And you know
I woke up this morning
Feeling jealous of all those people
In Bangladesh
Who were drowned
Drowned and died
And I
And I was filled
I was filled with so much fear
At how much I want to die
When once so full of life
But I’d hurt too many people
If I took my own life
People who I care for
People who are special
People who I love
And I never want those people to hurt
In the way I’m hurting now
I based my whole world around her
And now she’s gone
My world is so empty
Too big for me alone
And it’s collapsing around my ears
Leaving me naked
Vulnerable
And desolate
Exposed to my worst fears
My life and I
Are falling to pieces
Lots of hopeless pieces

But please don’t worry about me
Because I’m not worth it