Untitled And Incomplete

And as you turn to walk away
I can't help thinking that you lied
And as you turn to walk away
I can't help wishing that you'd tried
And as you turn to walk away
I can't help refusing to believe
That all we had believe us
Has really died..........

incomplete

And here is my big ending
My pyrotechnic finale
The bright lights
The spectacular few seconds
Then darkness
Forever

Wash It All Away

The tide goes out
Treasures a plenty left behind
Out to gather its trash from afar
The flotsam and jetsam
That becomes its story
That becomes it reason
That becomes what it is

You go out
Treasure a plenty left behind
Out to gather the night club trash
The slags and the whores
That become your story
That become your reason
That become what you are

And my tide is going out
My treasures long since abandoned
Strewn across your sands
Carried away
Carried far far away
To spread my treasures on a beach more welcoming
On a beach more accommodating
With beautiful clean sands
A place where treasure can sparkle in the sunshine

And on your sands
The memories of your story
The reminders of the fun
But now stained and dirty
Ugly and unclean
Wishing a huge wave
Could come and wash it all away
Wash your dirty little debris
All away
Wash it all away

Perhaps I Have The Answers

My uselessness
My ugliness
My unloveableness
My shallowness
My bitterness
My selfishness

Too painfully aware of my crushing mediocrity
So there's the answer staring right back at me
All falling into place
In front of my face.....................

I Hope You're Not About To Break My Heart

Crystal once said

We never lie when we dream

If she's right

All my hopes for the future

Are falling apart at the seams

All that I wished for

All that we planned

Head in turmoil

Your dreams of another

My insecurities spinning out of hand

Woken by your moaning

Smile on your face

Then the name of another

Breathed in pleasure

Oh such distaste

Is it business unfinished?

Is it for him that you yearn?

A feeling of anger

Jealousy, hurt, fear

Fester inside and brightly burn

Flatness, unsure

Trying so hard to pass it by

Your accusations in defence

Your protestations

Still failing to answer why

And oh my God

How glad was I for those onions

Masking the tears as I cried

And You Are Spring

From the rain
And the clouds
And the cold
And the fog
And the dark
And the wind
And the frost
Comes the sunshine
And the rainbow
And the warmth
And new life
And the dawn chorus
And the light
And the new beginning

Live A Lie Or Break Your Heart incomplete

I know I must do it
But it makes me feel sick
To the pit of my stomach
You are such a beautiful person
I wish I never had to hurt you
And you were the one hurting me
But I know I'm gonna break your heart
To be true to you
And true to myself
I hate myself for doing this to you
Between a rock and a hard place
Seems like penthouse luxury at the moment

I'm not asking for your sympathy
And I don't expect you
To understand
Or even wish me anything but harm
I would have done anything else
To spare you this pain
This emotional destruction
You deserve better
And I know I could have given it to you
But only superficially
And you deserve better than that also
But I know I'm gonna break your heart
To be true to you
And true to myself
I wish that you would hate me
But I know I'll always love you
Even though
I may be about to destroy you................